But it does. It pisses me off that I can’t go jog or something. I am feeling a lot better but I’m still very tired. I’m going to get a refill on my prenatals before the 12th, so hopefully that will help me.
I guess it’s ok since today is laundry day anyway. Everything works out.
Also, MadaLynn answers to Benya Benya. I win at life.
I’m still feeling the effect of last night. I ate a big spinach salad and went to bed afterward. I haven’t been able to get myself off the couch today. I’m so exhausted and weak, I just don’t want to move.
It’ upsetting because today is supposed to get into the 50s. I really would like to be able to take a walk with the baby but that doesn’t look like it’s going to happen.
Other than spinach, what foods are high in fiber? I’m hoping to get this taken care of before the day is up.
You know what, I think you’re right. I don’t know why I didn’t think about that!!! Before I got pregnant, I was always having issues with my iron levels but while I was pregnant my levels were always perfect. I’ll have to look up what to do. I think I may just start taking my prenatals again. Should have been taking them all along but I’m dumb. Thank you for mentioning this!
In general. I’ve been feeling like shit. Some nights I’m lightheaded and some I’m nauseous or so exhausted I could collapse.
Tonight I feel like I’m going to pass out. About an hour before I left Mrs. Tammy’s(my landlady) house, I thought I was going to pass out just sitting at the table. Just now, standing at the pantry I thought I was going to pass out. Now I’m laid up with my feet propped above my heart on the couch.
What the fuck is wrong with me!? I can go from perfectly normal, going full blast to feeling like I’m at death’s door. I really do not know what’s going on. I don’t really want to go to the doctor about it because I have before and they just don’t give a shit, to put it bluntly. They give me some meds for dizziness and move on. What’s the fucking point if they don’t want to find the problem?
I wish I knew a good doctor that would take the time to figure out what could be wrong. It’s probably because I’m on medicaid. But, whatever.
call the foodstamps people every day until you get them. A lot of times they take their sweet ass time because no one bothers them about it.
I’m actually going to call them today(here in a minute). I would hate to work with people like that. Every time I’ve had an appointment with the caseworker, there are always tons of people just standing around doing nothing and running their mouths to their co-workers. If I worked there, those people would fucking hate me.
MadaLynn woke up at 7 this morning :( Let’s hope that doesn’t stay very long. I like our 9 a.m. schedule just the way it is, thank you.
She’s watching wonderpets while I wait for my green tea to brew. I feel like telling people I have a glass of pee for breakfast every morning because the color is just terrible. Looks exactly like concentrated urine.
We’re supposed to go clean for my land lady today after MadaLynn wakes from her nap. I’m kind of nervous about it because I haven’t had time to practice piping more than once this past week. Kind of upsetting.
I’ve been stressing out a little this week. We still haven’t heard back from JFS about our foodstamps. Medical transferred over but FS is taking forever! It’s just shy of a month since we reapplied and they have all of our info. We are kinda need that shit, guys. They need to step up their game.
Lastly, a place in Sandusky(go figure) called Justin yesterday about a possible job. If he can borrow his parents 3rd car, he may be able to get it. I’m not sure where it is but I think it’s Ford. In that case, it’s an awesome job! We’ll probably lose our benefits but it would be for the better. We’d be able to move out, buy a car, and save money. Plus they offer benefits pretty early on. Ford is a wonderful company to work for. Cross your fingers that this is it.
I could easily throw my computer out the fucking window. Just as I was getting to the cardio workout, it decided to act like a fucking douche and freeze. You know, because it didn’t take me hours to motivate myself or anything. I was so mad when it happened that I had to stop myself from throwing the thing up against the wall. When I watched the video the other day, it didn’t freeze one time. But the day I’m actually trying to change myself…it fucks me over. Thank you, computer. You’re the epitome of bitch.
Even though I quit halfway through, my legs are tore UP! Sitting down to pee is like someone is ripping my muscles out and wiggling them around like a slinky. But really, I love that feeling. That feeling of accomplishment. Usually, the only thing that yields that is hours upon hours of cleaning. I am so ready to have my body back.
The one thing I hate about working out at home is the lack of elliptical machine. If we could afford it, I would be in the gym so fucking fast, you couldn’t pay me to stay home. I am in love with the elliptical. When I was in highschool, I would go to the gym and stay on the eliptical for over an hour, run the track, weights and cool down, then tan for 15 minutes when I was done. GOD that was wonderful. I miss that body. I miss that tan. Makes me sad that I can’t have that for a long while.
I’ll have to find a photo of my hot bod. Just kidding. BUT I will find you a picture of me when I worked out. It was the only time in my life that I wore regular shorts because I liked my legs :/
I basically wrote this to distract myself from the fact that I utterly failed at having any self control and motivation tonight. Fun stuff.
Why am I shy and weird about working out in front of Justin? I decided to start today because Saturday and Sunday will be my down days. Now I’m sitting here stalling because I don’t want to work out in front of him. UGH!